Tuesday, September 20, 2005

better days

"and you asked me what i want this year
and i tried to make this kind and clear
just the chance that maybe we'd find better days
cuz i don't need boxes wrapped in strings
and designer love and empty things
just a chance that maybe we'd find better days
so take these words and sing out loud
cuz everyone is forgiven now
cuz tonight's the night the world begins again"
- goo goo dolls

It's raining today. It feels nice. I don't know what it is about the rain. Brian really likes it but when it started yesterday, I have to admit, it seemed really ominous to me. It seemed to make the night darker and colder -- more sad. But today, it's different. I would have loved to stay in my warm bed this morning and doze while listening to the sounds of rolling thunder and raindrops hitting the roof, but I willed myself out and to work. Rain makes california a different world. It's nice for california to be a different world sometimes. I can't put my finger on it. I can't describe this feeling that comes with driving in the rain. Oh well, I'm sure people know what I'm talking about, and maybe some day I'll try harder to describe it.

The goo goo dolls song seems pretty appropriate for the moment, for the people rebuilding lives and trying to make it after the storm, for all of us. Thank God for grace.