Thursday, October 28, 2004
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
My life has been filled with drama. Drama about work, drama about future work, drama about the test, drama about any of my plans in general, other people's drama, almost any different kind of drama you could think of. Sharon keeps saying that my life is amusing because of all the drama in it. I would like to see what it would be like without it for a little bit, maybe just a little bit. I am pretty certain though that things will turn out okay, more than just okay actually. God's got everything under control, so I don't have to give myself an ulcer worrying about everything the way that I'm so good at worrying about things. Pray for me. I need to stop being so worked up and get some rest.
There is a lot I could write, I haven't updated in a long time, but I think I'll just leave it for a while. I don't have too much time to write, so I won't be happy with what gets posted anyway. Hopefully some more informative posts will come. Night everyone.
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Tonight I went to Chris's apartment and got to hang out with him and the Gaeblers. It was so cool to see them. We made spam musubi (cuz Chris remembered how we made it spring break freshman year), had caramel apples, talked nerdy (I feel bad cuz I must have grimaced every 15 minutes (I think it's at the point where no matter who I'm with, whenever someone says something nerdy, people turn to look at how I'm going to react . . . I'm trying to be more tolerant, I will get better, I hope)), caught up some, and watched "Chariots of Fire" which I had never seen before. It was great. A good night. Now with the rain and the cool drive home, it's officially a great night.
That's another thing, I realized today that I really like driving. If gas didn't cost so darn much, I wouldn't feel so bad about driving so much to work or to wherever. It's kinda nice, a good time to reflect or to pray. I think the thing that really helps is that I'm not afraid anymore, I'm not intimidated by it. I am realizing the key was my mom coming here, riding around with me, and telling me that I'm a good driver. Ever since I started driving, my mom has told me that my driving made her nervous and that I'm not ready to drive on freeways and stuff. That made me really nervous about driving. I think it makes a big difference to me that my mom thinks I drive well. Thanks Mommy.
I'm pretty sure that everyone reading this already knows this but I sent out an email to people in response to my blog entry about my getting a job. I was blown away because I got so many responses to that email. I didn't know that people cared that much to know what was going on for me. Thank you so much everyone. I feel so blessed and I appreciate all your prayers and thoughtful advice. I also think that Josh and Jordy have a point about the person getting the job should be the one treating others instead of the other way around, so as soon as I get myself a place, I'm throwing a party. (Just to let you know, I have no idea when I'm getting a place, but but as soon as I do, there WILL be a party).
I guess that's it. God is amazing, I am in wonder. I am praying that He will show Himself to all of you as well. Good night!
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Okay, that was my rant. I ranted a lot tonight. I think I feel better now. I like ranting cuz it gets out what you really feel about something. I mean, you're not going to make your decision totally off of what you feel, but it's good to get it out, and then people can know how you're feeling. So, I still don't know what I'm going to do about the job. Pray for me that I can know what God wants and that I can make a good decision. Pray also that somehow things will work out that I can be happy and not totally piss my parents off, cuz I do care about what they think, and I don't want to fight about things forever. I have hope that God wants me to live a good life, where I enjoy the things I do and can serve him faithfully with what I do. Praise God.
Friday, October 08, 2004
“I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah (I like that line)
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign"
Patience. Hope. Sigh.
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Anyway, long story short, it was good to talk to Greg. Hip hop class was really fun today, I just wish it was longer. There can never be too much dancing!
Lately, I've also been realizing how fun it is to learn (but at my own pace, not like at school where professors try to cram as much information into you as they could). At work I feel like I have to constantly learn new things, I love it. Today, as I was studying for the EIT, I was reviewing mechanics right, and how to use Mohr's circle again and deal with 3 dimensional stresses and stuff, and it made me kinda excited :). Man, I sound like such a nerd. Not much else going on. I want to send a shout-out to Sharon's mom although she will never read this, but she works so incredibly hard in this house, I just want to give her props :). Maybe I should get off this whole "shout-out" thing. But it's fun, and it's not old yet. But now it is, so no more after this one :). Peace.