This blogging thing is harder than I thought. There are always a ton of random stuff going around in my mind, but trying to find something to write down that is coherent is very difficult. Ask Brian. Right now I'm telling him that I'm getting all stressed out trying to write a blog entry. Maybe it will take a little time to get used to writing again and I should just try, cuz eventually I'll get back into the swing of things.
Okay, so here's something I've been kind of thinking about for a while. I dunno if it is terribly important, or very interesting, but it kind of came up today, so I thought I'd write about it.
I realize that I'm really bad at complimenting people.
Sometimes at work, I'll get random compliments - about my clothes or this or that, and maybe it shouldn't, but it does make me feel a little better about myself; it makes me feel a little more confident. Then I start to wonder why I don't compliment people. I mean if I think it's nice when other people compliment me, why don't I do it for other people? I realized that one reason that I don't do it is because I think it's too fake. Isn't that funny? I mean, other people might mean it when they do it, but if they don't mean it, I fall for it anyway. Another reason is because I feel like I have more important things to say. I think I'm a very practical person, and I tend to communicate that way. No room for fluff, just say what is important to say, especially at work. But don't get me wrong, I interact with people in a very friendly way. I even think they perceive me as very friendly, I just have a hard time complimenting others.
Anyway, the point of this is that I think I'm going to try to practice. But only when I really mean it. Only when I do notice something about someone else, and am thinking it anyway. Maybe it will make someone smile or something. That would be nice.