Tuesday, October 12, 2004

wow

So, I got offered a job today, an actual job, an actual engineering job. Wow! That feels weird to me. Joshdan said that he's going to buy me a drink :). I might have to hold you to that Josh. Anyway, I just don't know what to do. There are lots of pros and cons, and right now I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. I don't actually think it's that big of a decision, but it's making me think about all this stuff about the rest of my life. It's making me depressed because after talking with my mom, I feel like I'm going to be owned by my parents for the rest of my life and I won't be able to do what I really want to do, which is help people. I remember the faces of the children in Honduras who live in shacks and won't have many opportunities in life, and I will not just sit in my big house living comfortably when there are people starving to death.

Okay, that was my rant. I ranted a lot tonight. I think I feel better now. I like ranting cuz it gets out what you really feel about something. I mean, you're not going to make your decision totally off of what you feel, but it's good to get it out, and then people can know how you're feeling. So, I still don't know what I'm going to do about the job. Pray for me that I can know what God wants and that I can make a good decision. Pray also that somehow things will work out that I can be happy and not totally piss my parents off, cuz I do care about what they think, and I don't want to fight about things forever. I have hope that God wants me to live a good life, where I enjoy the things I do and can serve him faithfully with what I do. Praise God.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey, Congrats Michelle. I'll buy you a drink too... just drop by my place sometime. Or perhaps Joshdan could buy two for you and I'll pay him back for one of them.

Are you going to say anything else about the job? Where is it? What sort of engineering would you be doing? How soon will you start if you accept?

Also, don't forget that even in a working world you'll have plenty of opportunities to help people. The opportunities may look a lot different, and they may not be as obvious, but they will definately exist. On top of that, you've still got a ton of life ahead of you Michelle. Don't think that the next couple of years have to set the pattern for the rest of it. You probably knew all of that already, but now that I've typed it, I might at well post it.

You're in my prayers,
Philip

Anonymous said...

yup congrats Michy! I think usually the tradition goes that the one who just got the job treats their friends, though, not the other way around. :-) It's okay, I'll buy you a drink, I owe you one since I got a job myself too. :-)

yeah, and what Phil said. ditto.
+Jordy

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